Re: sasha ty for your reply?

by WithDrawMe


My doctor gave me all the meds. My parents are helping me also. Ty for your reply. I originally got on methadone from pain killers. Ive had several surgeries on my arm and shoulder. The pain killers just stopped working so i went to methadone. I’ve never been one to chase the high. I just dont want to hurt. I became reliant over time. I dont crave the methadone like most but i do know it will make me feel better so thats why i took it the other day. I sort of panicked when i couldnt get in the bath and regretted it later. Before i started this detox attempt, due to the snow, i had to go cold turkey from 30mgs. It was a nightmare. Way worse then now, however, now is still bad. I keep waiting for things to get like that but it hasnt happenned yet. I figured id be over the worse by now but i think the worst is yet to come. I just want to feel normal.
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  • richardmoore1020
    Allow me to share something with you if I may. I have been off and on (mostly on) pain killers for nearly six years due to an injury I sustained at work and subsequent surgery on my neck/upper back to hopefully solve my pain issues from the injury. The surgery only made things worse. I do not blame the doctor, for surgery either works or it doesn't especially when dealing with the neck area of your spine. Anyway, I was sent to a pain clinic for two years where the doctor there had me on 240mg Oxycontin a day PLUS six Lortab10 a day for breakthru pain. I was seriously hooked on the medicine probably after the third or fourth month, or less, who knows. The doctor decided to discharge me for reasons that were not true in my case and cut me off cold turkey. I was sent to a psychiatrist to be diagnosed. The psy. wanted the pain med Dr. to wean me off the pain meds but he refused to do so so my only option was detox. I was in the hospital for 8 days; went home and felt like crap. I basically wanted to die. The pain was unbearable and I knew I couldn't handle it. So the psy. referred me to a physician where I live that put me on Methadone. Now I have that horse chasing me. My body has become dependent on the methadone and I am currently prescribed 30mg twice daily but it is taking twice that to keep me calm and collected. Mind you, I am not chasing a high. That is not what I want at all. I just want to be out of pain but no matter what they put me on, it builds up in my system too quickly and I end up requiring more mediciine than what the doctor's start me at. I am now left with the feeling that I am going to end up dead one day from accidental overdose or worse. I am very afraid of withdrawal. Been there, done that, bought the t-shirt. It sux to be so afraid of that. But this medication circus has taken over my life and I no longer live as I used to. All my friends have died so I have no real friends to talk to anymore about these things. I just go thru my life one day at a time (w/o NA -- been there too and that was a joke). Kiddoe, I wish you much luck getting off the methadone. Please let me know how you did it! My head wants to give in but my heart wants to survive this. I know there has to be a better way. -- Richard
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