Help I must be having al kind of mental depresion sadnes problem?

I hesitate to go to any psychatarist because they wil give you only some medicine which is sum kinda drug for temporary hapines within i know i have a hoby analysing people like in public places i can out smart the psychatarist my problem is i wil never be hapy i used to cut myself now i just lie down like zombie in imence pain and sadnes i know sum heroin withdrawal also in efect as i used to take them not adicted had many time withdrawals its ben 4yrs now but as i remember i was sad suicidal b4 heroin 2 ,i was detox once.but like i said if i go to sum doc they give me sum medicine that is also sum kinda drug leser than heroin which is temporary fix for depresion sadnes anxiety chils insomnia.please tel me any food or drink or anything i can do without taking any kinda drug that tel my body am hapy wel being which is false in the form of medicine or drug for eg.heroin(without taking any kinda thing how to temporary make u feel hapy any food drink any exercise?pls help.thankyou for ur help takecare.

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