My doctor gave me all the meds. My parents are helping me also. Ty for your reply. I originally got on methadone from pain killers. Ive had several surgeries on my arm and shoulder. The pain killers just stopped working so i went to methadone. I’ve never been one to chase the high. I just dont want to hurt. I became reliant over time. I dont crave the methadone like most but i do know it will make me feel better so thats why i took it the other day. I sort of panicked when i couldnt get in the bath and regretted it later. Before i started this detox attempt, due to the snow, i had to go cold turkey from 30mgs. It was a nightmare. Way worse then now, however, now is still bad. I keep waiting for things to get like that but it hasnt happenned yet. I figured id be over the worse by now but i think the worst is yet to come. I just want to feel normal.